He was the one who got away

She had a 8 year long abusive relationship. It had been a year since she had come out of it. Till now she was living with her parents, surrounded by people & a cute dog who loved her, thus she never felt the loneliness. The dog had filled the gap, the void was filled.

But now she had come to MICA, a new place, first time away from home. She was a bit lost , the place felt alien, she didn't know how to be and what to do.

She was struggling with all this that there came a man,a boy to say, who understood her storm. He would talk to her as if he knew her. He would be that fig in the ocean who held her when she needed it the most. He loved her like anything & she grew. She found her place in that world through 'Chinar' of the place.

But now the tables had turned, the guy left. The girl knew how to venture in the dark . She had found the path, the path to be.

Unfortunately, the guy was lost now. he ventured into unknown territory. He seeked help, he seeked support. He seeked love.

But she had none to offer. She was empty. She had nothing to give . She couldnt deal with the expectation. She was healed though and he was broken.

She left him. She left him in the lurch. She left coz she was unable to offer what was expected. She left him coz she wanted to live. She left him coz he was wanting something in return which she could not give.

Its sad that she doesn't realize, its always a give and take. Its always two way. Love, relationship is two way. She thinks that she will be happy, that she can live without his love. But she doesnt understand that nothing is permanent. Not even happiness. Love is.

She took him for granted. but one day the tide will turn, she would face what the boy did. And she wont be able to share because there won't be anyone standing on the other end to hold her & tell her that everything is going to be okay. Its okay.

She will realize it ,not now, but after 6 months from today & she will know the extent of damage and pain she inflicted on the boy. And he would be heeled by the time that day comes.

I write it now, this day after six months, she will be sitting alone & wondering whom can she talk to. Where is everyone. Was he right. He should have been here. He was right about this.

He was the one who got away.

Heya Fellows,

This is my third post now. Life plays with you in a way that you can never imagine. There was me,in the last post, ranting out about how I don't want to settle down and don't want to do a 9 to 5 job. I want to love what i do and all that. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Now listen to what had happened to me last year. Three months after the second post i got into a relationship. The girl was my junior and also was fresh into college. Touted as the prettiest of the new lot, I went on a date with her and then we to started dating each other.

Initially i stuck to my guns but down the lane i got serious in the relationship and cut myself off from all my friends. Then i graduated and started working. Now i had no one else but her to talk to. I became clingy and she never supported me in this, instead she started taking steps back, became less responsive and more self centered. Also as it was a long distance relationship, with her still being in the college and evolving into a different person, i could not understand her point of view as she won't always tell about whats been on her mind.

Now after trying for almost a year, she broke up with me. And the funny part is that she did it on New year. This was in addition to my troubles of loosing my first job. Fresh out of college, ready to prove it to the world, and then the company gets shut down. LOL.

And now i don,t Naukri and chokri, ironically i had both in the beginning of last year.

Now although i still love her a lot and would do anything to win her back but i realized that the person i loved in college has changed. She is not the same person anymore.

So i don't love the person she is now and have told this to myself to get over her. She was a fine specimen when she came to college but it isn't the case anymore. She has become someone else, a person who doesnt want to to give our relationship any chance. I love her so much that i am ready to understand this person and mend the past. I am ready (actually i have) to change myself and accept all my flaws which made her move away from me.

But such is life. I still believe that she is gonna realize my worth in her world and come back to me but till that time i have to give her the space. which is 15 days from now. After which i am gonna meet her.

I pray to god that she comes back to her senses in these 15 days and i become a stronger man as in college and we continue to stay together.

Because the girl i met was perfect for me and i was perfect for her. Sex was great and we were evolving together .

Damn wrote a lot about it , Top of my mind all the time.