So i think this would be my second . and now i think it is a really good stress releiver and a platform to vent out . Just putting out anything infront of the people without a secong thought how it would effect others.

So today i was just thinking that why a man wants to settle down. The goal of life is always to settle down. but  ithink why to settle down why leave that passion that anxiety that unrestfullness to do something, to be something more. It's like you will and will always go downhill if you are settled . Why not keep that flame alive, that's the way to keep the desires alive. What bothers me is that , suppose after getting a girl (i love d beauty of the blog could have said relationship but i can be as blatant i want) the guys and girls stop trying for everything . They become fat and just two of them want to just be together neglecting all others, why is that i would never want to be like that. Like my friends they are completely cut off from our group and just spend time with their girlfriends , i mean why , why would somebody would turn like . and also u awont get sex and cant do sex 24x7. I mean dude , you become dependent and stop having the fun u used to have of going in groups without any purpose. i donno abt how it goes overseas but i think in india its going wrong>  And the fun part is one of my friends GF is so chilled out that she would allow him or rather wants him to hang out with his friends but he is always up her ass. 

This was just one way, I mean why would people want to lead a life like where they dont have anything to work for . They completely forget the rush of a chase. leave that thing people just want to work in a company settle down and lead that miserable life .

Why cant they follow their passions, why cant their life be like the painter in woody allen's movie vicky christina barcelona . just be free to do that. But i dont know people want to grow mature and just stop having fun. I don't know if its my frustration or something else which is leading me somewhere but i am not ready to settle and i want that constant desire to be better alive. I dont want to lead a miserable life where all people do is work 9-5 and just constantly juggling with work and family and no learning. 

I want to be more , I want to be in  a place where there is constant learning , where i am going constantly better . and most of all . I WANT TO LOVE IT. I dont want to go down the pages just as another human being. I would do what i love. Something which s my 'organic curiosity'.

and the fun part is that i am still confused about what my real passion is bt i guess this year awits me for that. and i would spend it for that .

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