So i think this would be my second . and now i think it is a really good stress releiver and a platform to vent out . Just putting out anything infront of the people without a secong thought how it would effect others.

So today i was just thinking that why a man wants to settle down. The goal of life is always to settle down. but  ithink why to settle down why leave that passion that anxiety that unrestfullness to do something, to be something more. It's like you will and will always go downhill if you are settled . Why not keep that flame alive, that's the way to keep the desires alive. What bothers me is that , suppose after getting a girl (i love d beauty of the blog could have said relationship but i can be as blatant i want) the guys and girls stop trying for everything . They become fat and just two of them want to just be together neglecting all others, why is that i would never want to be like that. Like my friends they are completely cut off from our group and just spend time with their girlfriends , i mean why , why would somebody would turn like . and also u awont get sex and cant do sex 24x7. I mean dude , you become dependent and stop having the fun u used to have of going in groups without any purpose. i donno abt how it goes overseas but i think in india its going wrong>  And the fun part is one of my friends GF is so chilled out that she would allow him or rather wants him to hang out with his friends but he is always up her ass. 

This was just one way, I mean why would people want to lead a life like where they dont have anything to work for . They completely forget the rush of a chase. leave that thing people just want to work in a company settle down and lead that miserable life .

Why cant they follow their passions, why cant their life be like the painter in woody allen's movie vicky christina barcelona . just be free to do that. But i dont know people want to grow mature and just stop having fun. I don't know if its my frustration or something else which is leading me somewhere but i am not ready to settle and i want that constant desire to be better alive. I dont want to lead a miserable life where all people do is work 9-5 and just constantly juggling with work and family and no learning. 

I want to be more , I want to be in  a place where there is constant learning , where i am going constantly better . and most of all . I WANT TO LOVE IT. I dont want to go down the pages just as another human being. I would do what i love. Something which s my 'organic curiosity'.

and the fun part is that i am still confused about what my real passion is bt i guess this year awits me for that. and i would spend it for that .

ADIOS 

so today is 25th of may. I am in banglore doing my internship. With all the complains about the company not doing well, not living upto its potential, with the founders not deserving enough, Me and my roomate (the same guy is in my company also, really nice guy, a big time rock fan) with another guy decided to go for a movie " tanu weds manu returns. So we ate our dinner and the show was at 10 pm in garuda swagat mall in jaynagar. And the best thing was that another show was available at Central , jp nagar but we decided to go to this place because we somehow calculated the money and central was though 160 but some calculation with distance and taxi fare indicated to go for this mall. By the way the movie plan totally out of the blue as we just made the plan and akshit didn't even book the tickets, sorry spoiler.

So we reached garuda mall to find out that only front row seats were available and thus with vinay with us ( who was constantly following an aunty with humongous ass, well it was big) to not to watch the movie. And another thing happened, which was quite unnatural, as we(well it was vinay who pointed it) saw 60 Rs just lying on the table of a closed confectionary shop. Weird right.

so vinay picked them saying they were meant to be used for taxi fare and yes, we paid our return fare from it. Now the story gets better. Hey by the way we abused akshit a lot and took his case for not booking the tickets and bringing us here, lot of fun in that. Yup , so we booked taxi for sure and a 52 tr old guy picked us who by the way didnt liik 52 and thats why i mentioned his age. He told us that that he earns 5k per day and also that he has worked in IISC for 15 years where he has worked as arranging taxi and providing conveyance for people in IISC.

The point is when i asked him that how is able to work daily from morning 6 to night 12, every freaking day, that too driving in bangalore traffic, only god can help you to stay sane. He told me that two thing are really important in life.
first is to eat properly, and second is to try taking less stress.
Now the second point he made, he told that take stress for 10 min or 20 or max 1 hr but do get rid of it after that. He said that socialize with your friends and other people as conversations really help you to destress. That was one hell of a teaching.

Another awakening was through karthik kumar from Evam. An ex-mican who started sankalp. saw his you tube video at some college. great guy, exhuberates confidence and conviction.
He gave the idea to always follow your " Organic Curiousity " in one's life and to explore it always.
Also another thing which he accentuated on giving equal weight to the concerns of your parents. Hmm cool ,dont feel like writing anymore.